Without all of your doubts, poor treatment and 'your way or the highway' approach to treating or discussing my IC I would not be as well as I am today. If I would've listened more and believed that my pain and symptoms could not improve then I would feel the same way that I did six years ago. Perhaps I would have acted on my thoughts of suicide. Or perhaps I would have been forced to go on disability because you did not explain to me that untreated IC can continue to cause further tissue damage. If I would have continued to listen because you had the inititals 'M.D.' behind your name, I would not have found my voice to question a urologist that gives cystoscopys without anesthesia or lidocaine. And I would still consider as a friend someone that I could not explain my reality of chronic illness and pain without fear of ridicule or embarrassment.
Thanks to each of you for pushing me to look deep within myself and to seek out the answers for healing locked inside my DNA. I know now that there is no secret pill for curing IC-but a lot of hard work, an IC friendly diet and being surrounded by supportive family, friends and doctors goes a very long way towards feeling better. I do wish you all well but mainly I wish that over the past six years you have realized the damage that such attitudes can and will do to the people you address as: patient, client or friend. Thankfully I used your treatment of me as a gift of how not to treat people. And for that, I will always be grateful to each of you.